“Beloved, you who are most tormented, most sorrowfully tried, most weighed down, yours is the brighter hope. Be courageous. Play the warrior for God, for Christ, for your own soul. The day will come when you will ride triumphant through the streets of the New Jerusalem with your master—with sin, death, and hell captive at your chariot wheels, and you with your Lord crowned as victor, having overcome through trust in the blood of the Lamb.” -Charles Spurgeon
Charles Spurgeon is one of the most famous nineteenth-century pastors, and the most prolific christian writer of all time. His words never fail to hit me, and some bowl me over and completely floor be with some conviction that I am utterly transformed the very instant I read them.
I am tormented, tried and tested to the breaking point, and weighed down with fantom thoughts and emotions, as well as my own actions. This illness is all consuming, devouring in nature, and there are times in which I feel it winning, defeating me in every aspect of my being.
Yet, I am called to be courageous in this battle, to fight the depression and anxiety, to not let the mania and fantoms in side my mind win. God is calling me to be His, Jesus is cheering me on, holding my hand, fighting along side me, if only I can open my ears I can hear Him. God is calling me to fight, as He calling you as well, my brothers and sisters. Bipolar does not have to win.
There are many things that threaten our eternal souls. There is sin, and complacency, and wrong decisions that we all inevitably face. But those of us with bipolar also face down the demons within, and sometimes we feel there is nothing we can do to beat them back. Is it inevitable that they will win? Are we destined to live without hope?
Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.” – John 14:6
God is calling us to be the warrior, to fight. This is not a moral, ethical fight, we are not fighting for politics or government, we are fighting for our very souls. Each day, as Christians we must take up this fight, and as sufferers of mental health we know all to well that we must fight for our sanity and stability. We are unique in that life has already forced us into the role of a warrior, and God is calling us to continue.
We fight for our stability and for our souls as Bipolar Christians, and God has already told us how to win. We trust in Jesus. We can not do this alone and be successful, we must place all of our faith and trust in Him. In fact, we can not do this ourselves and win. Only when we give up ourselves, and take up our cross, can we truly drive back the enemy.
For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast. -Ephesians 2:8-9